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Saturday, January 14, 2012

From Death 2 Life



Anshuman picks up his mobile and calls Aditi.”Hi Aditi i’m sorry for what happened on the college tour, I never wanted it to happen that way. It just happened. I’m really sorry” said he. “What do you mean it just happened Anshu. You never uttered a word to me on the whole tour. Every time its been me who came up to you and talked to you. And when ever you saw me coming your way, you just simply turned away as if I never existed and its not the first time you have done this sort of a thing. I simply can’t take it anymore. Either you consider me some sort of  a fool who always comes  your way to talk to you or else you are too proud, adamant, pompous and consider yourself some sort of prince charming and feel ashamed to talk to me infront of others” said she with an emotional tone. “That is never the thing Aditi, you don’t understand me…” said he. “ya I never understood you and now I never want to understand you” said Aditi interrupting Anshuman in between and disconnects the phone. He tries to call her again but she does’nt picks up the call.

The next day when Anshuman reaches college he tries to look for Aditi but that day she does’nt show up in college. Anshu goes up to Sandhya, Aditi’s roommate and asks her about Aditi. When she saw Anshu she fumes at him.. “I don’t know Anshu what’s the matter with you but if you feel ashamed to talk to her infront of other people then please don’t try to call her any more. This is not the first time that you are doing this. I remember the last Xmas vacations when you and your friends and me , Aditi and Drishya were on train together on our way back home. Before boarding the train you were constantly talking to her over the phone and once you both came face to face you never uttered a word, nor to her neither to anyone of us as if we never existed there on the train. We felt so disgusted and awkward at that time. And now you repeated it again on the Madras Tour. Enough is enough” said she and left the place.

Anshuman became highly disturbed and starts believing that something is really wrong with him and that is the reason why he’s so shy talking infront of other people. And infact of his calling Aditi a number of times she never responded and he lost all hope. All these situations caused him to take some decisions. He packs his bag and without saying a word to any one moves towards the railway station. On reaching the railway station he simply boards a train. After two minutes the train departs. Slowly the train gains speed. Anshuman stood at the gate of the train looking outisde. Behind him stood a man in his forties, tall and handsome. He found something suspicious in Anshuman standing there. He called out to Anshuman and asked him to close the gate but Anshuman paid no heed to him. And when the train reached a bridge he simply tried to jump from the train. Seeing which the man got hold of the bag he was holding on his back and pulled him inside. The man slapped Anshuman tight on his face and took him along and threw him into his compartment. In compartment along with the man his wife and daughter were also present. Anshuman begins to cry. Seeing her husband being angry with Anshuman she escorts him and asks her husband what the matter is. The man gets seated and tells them about what happened to which his wife and daughter became shocked. The man decides to take Anshuman home until his where abouts are known so that he can hand over him to his family.

The whole night the man was along with Anshuman in a room just to make sure he doesn’t attempt anything of that sort again. The next morining he asks Anshuman his address. “Please sir don’t inform my parents they won’nt be able to bear it” said Anshuman. “Then what do you think had they been able to see your dead body?” said the man to which Anshuman begins to cry. “Then what should I do” he shouts and cries. “What is that makes you take a such a big step in your life, failure in studies or any love failure” said he. Suddenly Anshuman looks up.”So love failure that is it..” said he.”It ain’nt really love failure sir, I’m  fed up of what and how I’m, I can’t take It anymore” and then he tells the man about whatever things happened that caused him to take this step.”I just don’t know what happens to me whenever I try to speak to her in front of other I always have this fear that somebody is watching me through out and people are looking at me and talking about me and laughing at me. And all these things cause me to avoid her infront of others and she mistook my fear as my rude and arrogant behaviour.” After hearing Anshuman the man maintained a silence for a few minutes and said “Actually it’s what we call social phobia and you are not alone in this world suffering from this medical condition and like other ailments this too can be cured with patience, support and a strong will.” Hearing this Anshuman anxiously asked ”Social Phobia…how can you say that”.”Well actaully I’m a doctor and has been treating such cases for the past 15 years. Don't worry you'll be fine”

And 10 years  later Anshuman came back to this very city where he tried to end his life once. Anshuman owns a house in this city and is married for past 9 years. Aditi also got married after college. He's now back home. He rings the door bell. His seven year old daughter opens the door and sees Anshuman. He takes her into his arms and asks her “ Where is your mamma dear?” to which his daughter says “She is in but I’ll only let you go if you complete the story of the shy guy that you left untold before going on your tour” Anshuman kisses her and begins to tell the story when Aditi comes in.” When did you come, ahh and Shruti how many times have you heard the story of the shy guy" she smiles at Anshuman, "come here and let papa relax a bit, he’s just arrived from his tour.” She smiles and takes Shruti from him.

Monday, July 4, 2011

Lessons Learnt......

Sometimes it takes a whole lifetime to understand a thing and sometimes just a moment or may be a simple incident.The earlier you understand life the luckier you are.There are people who go on living life as if they are living because they are born in this world.There are only a  few people who are Born.... 2 Live LIFE and they understand the true meaning of living a life.

When we were kids, everyone of us was fascinated by watching movies and shows such as super man and so wanted to become a movie star or super man, batman or may be visiting a foreign land , and many more such kind of wishes that we wanted to fulfill.But slowly and gradually as we grew up and began understanding this world and its miseries we began to improvise with whatever we had and succumbed to the so called harsh realities of life.And gradually we began marking out our dreams and wishes as something impossible and we lost hope and compromise with life when life became a bit tougher.And finally we are reduced to mere objects which are programmed to simply exists in this world with no dreams to fulfill and nothing to achieve.That's the biggest mistake that one makes in life ....to compromise with the Hard ships of life.

Never let anything or anyone make you feel that what you dream is beyond your reach.Always go out of your way to achieve what you desire and always make that extra effort count.Stepping out of your comfort zone will only make you more confident and  vibrant.Try making your dreams become real, work harder for it and when one dream is pursued, dream for another one.And the last but most important thing, Fall in Love.Its the most beautiful thing to experience in this World.Its a wonderful feeling to love some one and to be loved by someone.And in between all these things never forget your loved ones and friends because relationships is what makes life meaningful.

There might arise a question that who the hell am i to preach about the principles of living life and all.Well then, i'm no one, merely no one.....just some one who's started realizing what this life is all about and trying to utilize the left over life and resources to the fullest of my capabilities to curve out a niche for myself in this big and lovely world.

Monday, August 16, 2010

What's 15th of August "It's a holiday ..oops sorry its friday"


These guys who fought for our country and are responsible for the hard earned independence, would have never thought that the day for which they sacrificed their life would be treated just as another holiday.

This is a funny incident that happened in my college.During one of our usual lab sessions, the lab instructor became patriotically charged when someone mentioned the name of Gandhiji.When he was at the peak of his patriotic feelings he asked a girl
"What is 15th of August?" pat came the reply "It's a holiday sir".His face suddenly became reddish and it seemed, if she uttered another word he would simply swallow her up without giving any second thought.Pondering over what she said, she stood up from her chair as if realizing her mistake,
"ooppss sorry sir its friday".

Anywaz Happy Independence Day to all Proud Indians ---Jai Hind

Friday, August 6, 2010

I'm Alive!!!!

This is dummy post just make my presence felt at the blogosphere.I have been quite irregular at my blog due some personal reasons and will return back soon after setting things right, till then happy blogging to all fellow bloggers.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

A Beautiful Mistake

One day out of the blue she came into my life ,
Until that day i never entered this state,
She knocked at my heart and i let her in,
May be that was a mistake, yet a beautiful mistake.

Exquisite was she or may be i was in a fairyland,
Mesmerizing was she or maybe i was with a psychiatrist,
No exaggerations, she took me to a new world,
A whole new world, simply majestic.

But she was destined for him, he for her
Then what was i doing there for heaven's sake,
And was that feeling inside??
Or maybe that was a mistake, a beautiful mistake.

A mistake not to mourn for, not to cry for
But to realize the spark it ignited,
O God! What a beautiful mistake,
A mistake that my heart instigated.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Two Sides of Life


I have learnt, that in life
We cannot get everything we desire,
Thus we should be happy and satisfied
With whatever we acquire.

No single person gets all joys of the world,
And no single person suffers from all sorrows,
Because it is our fate which decide,
What should be our today and what our tomorrow.

Therefore we should face bad times with courage,
And should always be joyful and cheerful
Coz these are the things which
Make our life meaningful.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

It Takes Courage 2 Hope


Well this post is about a friend of mine, Jerin(name changed) whose brother Joshin(name changed) is suffering from autism and Joshin is 5 years old.
Jerin's family has taken his brother to all the big hospitals in the country for treatment but all in vain.Doctors say that they should have brought the child at an early stage coz its difficult to diagnose after an age of 4-5 years.

One day i asked him what is that makes you hope that your brother will be able to lead a normal life.Suddenly he turns red in face and fumes at me "are you saying he will not be able to lead a normal life?" then he gave me a look as if he wanted to wring my neck and suddenly left the place. It was then i realised may be he misunderstood me.

I met him after two days and apologized to him to which he just smiled.Then he went on to tell me a story about a young man who was deeply in love with a beautiful girl. Both studied in the same college but the problem was the girl loved someone else.After college the girl gets married. Boy leaves the city and decides never to marry anyone else.

"Now what has this to do with us?" i asked. With the same smile on his face he replies "that boy is my father and the beautiful girl is my mother now."
he continues "my father left the city with a hope that may be some day things turn out his way and it did. If he did'nt had any hope then i wouldnt be here."

"So you asked what is it that makes me hope, well, its my father".

You might be thinking what happened to her husband, well he died 1 year after the marriage due to blood cancer.And Jerin's parents got married after 10 years.